Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Whose side am I on??


Ever since the terror attack on Mumbai i had been deeply interested in the relationship between India and Pakistan. I had always had the opinion that Kashmir should be a part of India and Pakistan should rightfully hand it over to us. Now this was a highly biased opinion because it was solely based on the fact that I'm a very proud Indian and highly ignorant at the same time(I'm at the far end). I never thought India could have done anything wrong and it's the fault of Pakistanis alone that our relationship has gone from bad to worse. Also i never gave a thought what Kashmiris might be thinking, i took it for granted that they all wanted to be a part of India.( Yeah i know,totally oblivious!! )

What has changed my belief now?? As some guy once said, "Whenever in doubt, Just Wiki!! " I did just that. The thing with wiki, as we all know, is once we get started it is a chain reaction,you just cant help jumping from link to link. I landed here in my quest to understand the situation more closely. I had started here (the link) and just wandered off!


The issue has become so complicated over the years, than it was at the time of independence, that the solution will require the two nations to follow a very tight line if they the interests of the Kashmiris are to be protected, rather than their own.

As of now i don't have a firm opinion like i used to,partly because I'm a not so ignorant "i-feel -responsible" kind of Indian now. All i feel is empathy for those innocent people of Kashmir. I'm unsure about what i can do to amend the situation.Sadly like any ideal citizen I'll also sit and wait for the two governments to do something. And pray the new generation, of whom I'm a also a part of, will show more character and resolve the issue that has eaten the subcontinent for more than half a century. Even though it looks like a far cry,after reading the articles, i still hope I'll be able to see the situation adjudicate.

What is the instant solution? As the leftist might voice, "We need a goddamn revolution!!". Revolution perhaps not at the political level but in of our hearts our perspectives . So the question "Whose side am i on?" becomes irrelevant, because whoever i/we may support it wont be of any real consequence because our cause is one,
Freedom!!

The Hard Way

Hours of inactivity combined with the realization of the myriad activities to be completed has left me in a state of psychotic illusionary perceptive and insane self containment. Was listening to this song by Fort Minor - The Hard Way


Come with me
Let me walk in through the world that I currently stay in
You can take a look around and tell me if I’m mistaken
You can even talk to everybody that I live with
Maybe you could tell me why everybody’s so distant
Is it me or maybe, when I look around daily
I don’t even know the people I can put my trust in lately
People that I used to hang with now their actin’ to different
I’m still the same person why doesn’t anybody listen
Can somebody please just explain to me
What happened to the way that we always said we’d be
Right now I don't know why I push through the pain that I got through
And I’m losin’ hope

[chorus]
Deafening voices
That frequency inside my head that says
I’m going at it the hard way I focus
Get everything inside out of my brain that claims
I’m going at it the hard way

Come with me
Let me walk in through the world that I currently live in
Not a thing is forgotten, not a thing is forgiven
Nobody can hold their own underneath the weight but
Nobody can take the blame for their own mistakes so
What do you do when somebody lets you down
And you wanna say something but you can’t cause their not around
Inside you think they know the extent of the pain
But they won’t even admit that they were the one to blame
Can somebody please just explain to me
What happened to the way that we always said we’d be
Cause right now I don't know why I push through the pain that I got through
And I’m losin’ hope

[chorus]

Voices in my head

Can somebody please just explain to me
What happened to the way that we always said we’d be
Right now I dunno why I push through the pain that I got through
And I’m losin’ hope, give me one reason not to

[chorus]
Why this song? It's just that the song can easily correlate to the state of mind I'm in now, in a lot of different ways, the confusion surmounting on top of insecurity, the despair coming with loss of trust and hope and the lack of clarity in thought. Jeez!! I'm learning the hard way, the only way i know!